seeing ex for the first time.....

[itsy]

Thanks for stoppping by....


I do have myself together..it was not like this for a long time. I went thru a hell that nobody deserves. Many heart wretching nights and a mental hospital stay. It took me along time to get it together and I learned so much along the way.
I am one strong lady now and I am enjoying my life so much. I have a great job that I love that it's almost not working. I am looking for a new partner in my life and will be more mature and repsonsible in the future relationships that I have.

He's GF is not at all what I expected. I thought that she would be happy and cheerful and full of life. I did not see that at all. She was dowdy OLD looking from a wine habit that I now know about. I thought that she would have been somehting else she was nothing at all . I knew her in high school and remember her as a girl that went after others boyfriends and that she was pretty with big boobs. She has the boobs but they are a sagging as well as the face.. I never have seen her in the four years that he has been with her. He went to high school reunion and remeet her. She was a homecoming princess at one time. I just expected something more knowing her past. We all went to high school together. There is another reunion next year and I might even go this time...hhahaaahhhaaaa

I did so well because I have let it all go. I can not forgive him for what he did to us( 100's of other women in a 3 year period, mostly prostitues and low class scum women.)I can let it go tho and once I did I soared with my own recovery to getting me to the place that I am now.
No one deserves to be here and put through the rollercoaster rides the lies and decit that we go thru for the sake of a marriage or love. It's wasn't enough for me. I let it all go and have become who I am today, a wonderful full of life person blessed in so many ways. God has a plan for me and I am living it every day and I am so thankful. I finally found the most wonderful counselor who has been a great help to me and what I wanted to do. he listens and repsonds to my issues and talks to me. He gives great feedback. I started the recovery process when I let it all go, can't forgive but can let it go. What he did to me was unforgiveable no matter how hard I tried to forgive and move on. I just let it go and moved forward and it has been great.I did not post alot here but was a lurker alot. It hurt me too much to be here. But I have recovered myself and I look forward to so much now.
I hope that I can help others when I stop in which is infrequently but sometimes it's just best to let it all go and move on. For me that was the answer....
ITSY