Ok. For all of the fans of Freud out there. My father died when I was just in the midst of fully detaching from him. I was not able to "love him fully" before he left"...hmmm....or did I? I held his hand for three months and loved him through the pain, and disappointment and discomfort. What am I reliving here? Am I making it the same or different? Lots to chew on.[/quote] [b][/b]
AAK - I have to admit, I'm not deep enough to even get near this, but it seems significant. I just think, based on your words and feelings you've shared with us, how could you have NOT loved H enough yet? It just doesn't appear that you could even love that little? Consider how MANY people would be here, committing this time and emotional energy to trying to figure this all out? COME ON!! Ok, that's all I can add. Give your self some credit, and forgiveness.
"That's as deep as the blankmind gets!"
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
