Feeling Like A Victim Tonight....

[eternaloptimist]

Yes, I relate to not wanting to take the drugs.

When did H drop the bomb?

I found that exercise saved me, had to do it EVERY day or I'd be near suicidal (yes, that bad. Not that I'd ever do it, just was so overwhelmed).

Hi - Oh, I can relate to being so overwhelmed. Can't believe the nausea won't go away. H dropped the bomb back in March I think. I don't remember the day b/c I didn't take him seriously at first. Then we had sex two weeks later, again mixed signals for me. So I guess none of it sank in until I started uncovering his emotional affairs. We've been in conflict ever since. There have been times when I thought we were on a road to "working on the marriage." That was before I found out about the 2nd emotional affair. When I wasn't able to immediately put the affairs behind us, he has been edging closer to divorce.

I'm so emotionally spent. I was having a good day yesterday, made a decision to stay in the house no matter what his decision is b/c that at least gives me and our son some normalcy for a year, a chance to save some money, pay off some debt, and pull myself together. But H keeps pulling us back into conflict with his moods. After our son goes to bed, he more or less falls asleep on the couch, is moody, not pleasant to be around. Does this sound at all like depression? I'm convinced that he's been in a deep depression for a long time. Of course, he'll never admit to it.