It is normal to have lows in your day. I control my moods now and enjoy the weather no matter what is going on. Fear no longer controls my life. I lost my brother to lightning about 12 years ago. I do take precautions, but I still enjoy a lightning storm. The terror is gone.
You and H are connected. You both share the same feelings. Your thoughts become your reality, his thoughts become his reality.
The sooner you get your thoughts onto things that make you happy, the faster this process will go. That is why it is critical to start doing things that make you happy.
When I feel alone, I go out. Starbucks is my place. Where is your place? There are 7.5 Billion people on this planet. Go be with some of them. They are all interesting. Pass out what you want to receive. Want some smiles, go smile at people. Want people to talk to you, go talk to people. Some will be receptive, others won't. Don't take any rejection personal. They have their issues to deal with.
DO SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD. Be in the moment and enjoy it.
I went to Walmart for pedicures. That was really nice.
Fill up your day doing things that make you feel good.
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