I don't yet know the source but I suspect some of it is to avoid feeling sad.
AJ, just checking in on you after a week away.
I think you may just be feeling like your W threw your life out the window and you start missing all the things you had for so long. Your mind will always look for a guilty party in those situations. What you really are (I think) is sad about it taking this turn. Taking some time to yourself forces you to make sure you make yourself happy instead of relying on others for that. You will feel better after you do that.
