Newly separated...spouse left, 4th thread

[antlers]

Another thought: Your W is so angry and hateful, I'm thinking that's somehow a good thing. For whatever reason(s), she feels justified in her anger and justified in leaving you. If she didn't care and was completely rid of you in her heart, she wouldn't have such seething anger. If you can make it up to her, maybe not today, maybe not this year, but someday... you never know what can happen.

Certainly might be too early for these thoughts, but thought I'd throw them out there to help you stay resilient.

Lucky

I've thought about that LuckyGirl, but I don't know. I've sure said a lot of crap to her over the years that I did not mean...just because I was mad or hurt. She seems to mean it though. Hard to imagine her behavior to me being a good thing. Yeah, she does feel justified in her anger...and I can't argue too much with that. She feels justified in leaving too, and although I understand how she felt like she had to do it...I wish she had chosen something different. Really? You think that since she still has seething anger directed at me...that she still cares some for me? I've tried for months to make it up to her, and am committed to staying with it and not giving up...even though I'm detatching and 'dropping the rope'. I hope she heals, and I hope she forgives me.

I appreciate that...resiliency is something that I need to have.