Another thought: Your W is so angry and hateful, I'm thinking that's somehow a good thing. For whatever reason(s), she feels justified in her anger and justified in leaving you. If she didn't care and was completely rid of you in her heart, she wouldn't have such seething anger. If you can make it up to her, maybe not today, maybe not this year, but someday... you never know what can happen.
Certainly might be too early for these thoughts, but thought I'd throw them out there to help you stay resilient.
