Divorce looming #14

[K4D]

I know. But I did take it as a good sign.

I called the court house this morning because they had told me to call back Wednesday to find out if the divorce had been officially dismissed. They said it was scheduled to be dismissed June 4th, but the judge had not officially signed the order yet and the person that could tell me officially is not in today. So another day of waiting in limbo to see officially for sure.

I had a friend come over after dinner last night and we played poker and then blokus. Was fun. Tonite I am planning on going to a poker tournament that shouldn't be canceled. I guess there just isn't enough people to do the tournaments on Monday nights. I don't think a whole lot happens on Monday nights in general. I know it was always a night we wanted to stay home and relax.

What I don't continue to get is W thanking me for watching the kids on her night. Like it is a burden to me. She truly doesn't get that they come first to me and are more important than anything else. She just doesn't get that. I'd take them full time if I could. I asked her if we could switch on when we take them in the middle of the week from Wednesday night to Thursday night and she said she already had plans. I said ok. No biggie. But its just interesting to me that her plans are more important than the kids. Its almost like a burden to her in a way. She really enjoys her single time. Where as I really enjoy my kids and my family. It just seems like something is not right there. She doesn't ever really call them during the week when they are with me. I'm not sure why. Maybe she just forgets because she is caught up in whatever she is doing.

But all in all things seem to be getting to a much friendlier level. This morning she called me and asked if I needed more contact lenses ordered since we always order them together in one package. I said yes. She said she would take care of it. I said ok and thanks.

Its a strange situation as of late. But I am hoping it is small baby steps back to an eventual reconcilation with time. There are no I love you's or hugs or kisses or anything like that. But it would be way way to soon to expect anything in that direction right now.

I think she is starting to see some changes in me when we are around each other. Kids are at the rec center today by the way. I won't make that mistake again. She had them last night and tonite and then I get them back tomorrow night over night so I am looking forward to that again. I always look forward to seeing them.

I don't understand any of the latest reactions, but I just take them as positives.

Kevin