Well just got back last night from my trip. I did all the right things on the trip little contact. Would text one a day or so and tell her that we made it to the next place and that was about it. First two days didn't even do that. I called and talked to her twice for a couple of minutes on the entire trip.
When I got back she didn't care about anything on the trip in fact she went straight into how she wanted a divorce and she had been thinking about it the whole time I was gone and that we were through no matter what. She said that she could not take it anymore.
I told her that I was sad and that I wanted to work on it but this was her decision and if this is what she wanted to do then so be it. I asked her if counseling or Retrauville be an option and she said no. So I left it at that. I told her that I would move out of the house as soon as a could find a place. I also did not sleep in our bed that night. She did not say anything about not sleeping in it I just couldn't. Also maybe I shouldn't have volunteered to find a place it is just that I find it really hard to live there alone.
She is still having a hard time getting over things that happened 4 years ago and keeps bringing them up now. I am really losing hope for my situation as I truly thoguht that things would be better when I returned or at least the same not it's over.
From here I really don't know what to do.
"Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well" Matthew 6:33
