t-minus 02:24

Every time I close my eyes it's like looking at the looking at the count downtimer from "24".

So it's overcast and gloomy out but will be sunny and warm later, good day for a divorce. Trying to add sarcastic humor as that's all I've got today.

I so want to pour my heart out one final time to her, but I know it's pointless.

I'm so tired of crying, I'm so tired of my stomache turning, my head pounding and just being a wreck.

It ends today.

I sent ExW a message last night: "good night Mrs 'dday1017', final time you bear name'. Stupid I know. Even stupider, I still love her.

I have nothing else for the moment. Time to get showered up and do this.

Me 35/XW 33
S13 & S12
M: 10/17/98
OM & S: 07/08
D final 06/09/09
12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing"
06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10
06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11