A new thread, a new outlook.....

[Can it work]

Thank you very much for your input VS. You're completely right that I can't give up just yet. Although I'm fast approaching the 6 month mark, my desire to reconcile with my W has not abated in the least. I just wish it wouldn't feel like such a futile quest sometimes.

I went down to my W's house last night to spend time with Wee Man since I'm not getting him on my usual nights this week. I was hoping that to have some good conversation with my W while I was there too but pretty much as soon as I arrived, she took the opportunity to go out a walk. Still, I had a good time with Wee Man and my W did come back before he went down to bed. We did have a bit of a chat then and I'll admit that it wasn't completely unpleasant. I do get the feeling sometimes though that she's being pleasant with me because she feels she has to since I'm the father of her child. If we'd been in this same situation without ever having Wee Man I doubt if I'd get the time of day. No sense in thinking about that I suppose.

So, I'm going for another visit tomorrow night although she's already told me she's going to go out a walk to give me and Wee Man some time alone together. I'd rather she stick around and enjoy the time with us but I can't see any way of suggesting that without sounding as though I'm pursuing. I did tell her that she shouldn't feel she has to leave her own house on my account but it fell on deaf ears. She wanted to get out a walk anyway.

Let's just say I'm beginning to struggle again with all this as it feels like so long since we separated. I'm just beginning to wonder if it's ever going to happen.

Kev