Oh, I just couldn't believe how hard it was to sit with him and listen. I mean I had to force myself. And when he was prodding S9, "are you listening to me?" I just had to look away. I mean what hell does a 9 year old care about VIP and rock star's tour bus etc.
I want to love him and be able to appreciate him regardless of M issues but come on...this is just fluff.
Although, obviously it is a BFD to him...so, maybe I can try to be happy for him. It just feels so twisted. And, this has been building up for years...this has been a huge issue since he left last time. I don't know that it will change barring a major trauma or catharsis.
I think I will either need to tell him he is no longer welcomed to come in this house (at least not as if it is his), or offer for him to stay in guest house...but I think the only way for me to offer the latter is if we are in counseling.
