The kids are excited b/c H is being a bit like Santa - bringing gifts, just dropping by for a a little while. Under all of that is some fear and anxiety too I would think. Maybe that's why they wanted to sleep with H tonight, and you gave up your bed to make it happen.
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AK...This is so true. I also think you did the right thing, if it weren't for the kids, how much of this would you take? NONE! Gosh, I can't imagine how you must have felt tonight...it is all so WEIRD! I mean him of course. I am glad you went out... I really agree with the fact that I think you know where you are in this. I imagine that a few more of these interactions and like you said yourself NO connection and you will be OVER it. (as much as humaly possible!) And ready more than ever to move on. You dealt with everything well...I am proud of you.
Thanks Nicole. This has been going on for so long. It escalates. I am sure it is coming to a head. He has no where to stay. There's a slight chance he isn't just using us and wants to be here...
It will be weird to wake up in the morning with him here.
I have to say that the other times he's returned from long trips, there was "no connection" and then within a few hours or a day, he'd be looking at me that way again.
As usual, I know I want my family together and I know I would love it if it were enough of a priority for him to try but who is right now? Nope.
I really need support so thanks. I can't believe how easily I came unglued but I was conscious of it.
