I wrote this: [quote]The very idea of what we're about to do to the children we created, and who depend on us to give their world meaning.... It's incomprehensible to me. As much as this divorce has taken over every aspect of my life, knowing what's coming - wondering what the looks on their faces will be, what the ache in their little hearts and tummies will be, how confused and frightened and abandoned and betrayed they're going to feel - that's just some next-level sh*t to cope with.
Gee, thanks for making me cry, SP. Thanksabunch.
This -- the thought of my boys (S16, S12) and how much of their world revolves around the four of us (and their two older sisters), INTACT -- is what keeps me pushing on.
EVERY time we've backed away from the abyss, it's been on the cusp of having to tell the boys.
