Si its has been a few days since I posted anything. I spent the weekend with my S3, we went to a fair Saturday night, and on Sunday I took him for a bike ride to see W's uncle(we are close and already agreed to remain friends no matter what the outcome is). Ended up going back to W's uncles after bike ride, to go swimming and stayed for dinner. Overall a great weekend, until had to bring S3 to W. When S3 realized that we were on MIL's road, started crying that we doesn't want to go to nanny's or with mommy. Broke my heart, I brought him into W, and said goodbye, and told her I can't do this anymore.

She called me at home, wondering what I meant, explained to her that she said S3 will be fine, he won't understand, told her well he does, and he is hurting. Ended conversation - I just mentally couldn't do it.

Now this morning W calls me at work to help her with her computer - some stupid problem - I remote access her pc help her out done. Fast forward on to tonight, I get home go for a bike ride to help with some of the frustration/sadness. Get home eat and come online here to read some threads. W calls just as I get on. She wants to know how she can access the home computer and all the pictures on it. Ask her why - says she needs a picture. She tells me that she is looking for an old picture, and that the drive she took only goes up to February. She took the back up drive in Feb. when she left and that has all the pictures on it. Which means anything newer she has from the camera - and any pic on the computer she also has there.

I then get the same old lecture, ,which at this point, I am honestly beginning to get tired of hearing. You ruined everything, and I hate you!! I told her I'm sorry, I know that's how you feel, and I am not going to argue with you over this. Told S3 to have a good night and hung up phone.

How is it that the WAS knows just how to kick you when you are down? As if I wasn't having a hard enough day, i have to go through all this again.
Do they just try and make you feel miserable, are they miserable and think misery loves company? Or are they just trying to remind themselves of why they left?


Me 35
W 30
S 3
M 7 : T 13 yrs
Separated 2/20/09
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