I am posting this just to keep anyone that was following along up to date. My head is spinning a little bit...no.. a lot and not sure where the next 24 hrs will bring me.
Short and to the point...
They got in around 5 this morning and I barely woke before wife crawled into bed and snuggles up to me because she was cold and tired from driving all night.
One thing led to another....and instead of sticking to my guns and keeping it cool...being distant but there...I melted when she came close. I had originally thought that I would be gone for work before they got back.
We ML...we stayed next to each other and grabbed a couple of hours sleep. I went to get coffee....she crawled out of bed and went to the car to bring me the "gifts" she brought back for me...silly things, but she went out to the car just for that.
Pleasant, calm chatter and I was off to work.
Feeling weird...indifferent...calm..she ML to me...we were close. Why did she allow that after me finding out about text friend?
My heart was thinking at least maybe it is not physical...who knows what she is thinking...has the fact that I know made a difference. I was believing that it was still an EA, but confused...I tried so hard not to let her be physical with me, but when she got in bed next to me, I couldn't help myself. I still believe she would not physically cheat on me...and continue to be intimate with me.
Do I still want her if this was only an EA...was this a dealer breaker...all day I was still spinning and had decided, still, to just let things ride..wait for the right time and get it out in the open....there was no urgency.
But, I needed to know more...had he sent her any messages...just knowing whether they texted was not good enough so I snooped again.
Copied and pasted, exactly as I found it.....
"hello beautiful im leavn on tues or weds three stops bfore XXXX caant wait to touch you n kiss All over You i love you honestly you sexy"
Hope he is more articulate in person.
I am still at work, and as I write this she is on fb..chatting with me as if nothing has happened...as if we are going to pick up right where we left off 2 weeks ago.
I have about 2 hours to decide what I do when I get home, and by the note...until the weekend?...before they have their first physical meeting...
Is it the first?...is this a deal breaker now?
Do I confront her with what I know and admit to the snooping. Will the exposure change her plans?
I feel like, if there has been nothing physical between them, and that is the plan, I can't let it happen.
If there already has been, I need to know now. I know I need to be calm and relax, but I can't live with this all week and just wait to see how it plays out. I can't stand by and watch as my wife goes out next weekend.. not knowing where or with who.
