So what should I do? Should I ask him about using my computer while I was gone?
Sometimes I get so frustrated with this game that I just ask myself it it's really worth it. I'm not happy, I'm trying to GAL and PMA, but deep down I'm miserable, I hurt so much. Everything about this summer is turning out completely opposite of what I was expecting. Why me? I'm a good woman, I know I had my issues, but I'm working on them.
Why can't he just see that he would never find someone like me again? Someone who loved him and his son and was completely devoted to them. Maybe that was part of the problem, I was too attached to him and had a different idea of what "family" and "marriage" means.
I still believe, in spite of everything that has happened, that there is hope for us. I just started reading DR and I've been going dark, but is it healthy for me to have the expectation and hope that we will be back together after his 6 month lease is up? Or should I proceed with no expectations of us reconciling at all?
I know that I will survive, but being in limbo with NC at all from H hurts me like I've never been hurt before.
Me 40 WAH 43 T 4 years M 91/2 months sep. for 3 weeks stepson 9 1 dog 1 cat
