Well, last night went fine I guess, W didn`t get home till almost midnight I kept wondering where she was and getting slightly annoyed until I realized that it just isn`t my place to get annoyed anymore. That seemed to bring me some relief.
When she did get home we discussed her visit with our friends for awhile which led us into a conversation-arguement that lasted for the next two hours. Nothing too heated we just do not know how to have a constructive conversation-arguement, we just end up trying to get each other to see the others side.
But through all of this one thing is very clear and she made it that way last night, the vast majority of her feelings, issues and problems are due to the fact that I caused them.She is taking little or no responsibility for any of this!
Sometimes I just think it would be so much easier and possible better to just start over with someone else, someone who would love me without all of these conditions, and truly accept me for who I am.
There are many things about my wife that are not the most flattering, or endearing things to her personality, things that I identified within the first 8 mos or so of dating,but I accepted them eventually and loved her just the same.
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Me 42, Her 34 M 3yrs, T 8yrs D 5 S 3 S 2 ILYBINILWY 02/09 Sleeping in same bed/no intimacy "I,m done" her words: 05/28/09
