well emotionally, he lost me 2 weeks ago when this all went down, all he has now is emotion from me with our business.

physically, i do need to restrain myself, u are right.

its hard because i want the connection, i want to be close to him, but i know i need to not give in to him while he is back with her.

me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09