Thanks for the insight. I really think that being emotionally and physically exhausted is just too much for me to maintain anything with H. I just want support and since I can't get any, I need to not contact him until I am done with this whole moving process.
I think part of the panic is that he is coming down in a week or 2 (no definate date set yet) and I feel like the ax is going to fall on me again. The last time he came to see me, he served me D papers. I am nervous....very nervous.
When I think about the last 5 weeks, I think I have handled myself with dignity and intellingence. I got us out of buying a house....(it helps me bc I don't have to be attached to him financially and it helps him bc it got him out of a mortgage payment) I broke our finances down to who is managing what. H was planning on cashing in his 401K. I advised him against it and thank god he listened. Finances are ok. I have surprisingly been ok on my own more days than not for the past couple of weeks. I have not been weepy or needy, except for the slip yesterday. I have been proactive with my life.
I don't think there is much else I can do for R. It is feeling like he is in the driver's seat. I really hate that. Its not like he knows what to do or is in any state to be in the driver's seat. Its like he stone cold drunk and getting behind a wheel and I can't seem to figure out how to take the keys away from him!
But, I will continue to keep myself busy and keep a PMA. Today's goal is to not get bogged down by EVERYTHING. I will take your advice hopeful_cb and break the unpacking down to small manangeable things.
Goals:
1. I need to drop off the truck
2. I need to go to the auto insurance place
3. I need to get a remote control, cuz H has it & I don't feel like waiting around for him to get here
4. I need to contact my employer and stop by to say hello
