How do I get thru this?

[needinghope]

I'm new here, but I am looking forward to accessing some of the wisdom that I have been reading in the forums. I am still in shock so much of my life makes no sense right now. My H and I have been married for almost 6 years. We do not have kids (thank God). We are both 30. My H had an affair beginning in Mar 07 and I discovered it Oct of the same year. We went to a C but she was a little weird. He began corresponding with the OW again in 08, but stopped within a few months. In April I found an email that he sent that basically said he missed her. When I confronted him, he left for 2 weeks. I didn't handle it well. I called non-stop and was pretty much a mess when we talked. He came back because he had no where else to go. I called a DB coach and I began DBing. I stopped initiating all R talk and began focusing on more positive parts of our marriage. I felt great. We were relaxed and comfortable again. we began having fun together again. Then when I got home on Friday, all of his stuff was gone. I'm in shock. I thought things were going well, but he said he didn't know if he could ever feel the kind of love he once did for me. I have called and cried and begged for him to come home. I know that that is the worst way to handle it, but I've been out of my mind. Is there anything left to save at this point? And how do I know? He has called to tell me that he is miserable and even vomiting! He wants to meet me for lunch tomorrow. Wondering what to do?