On being the best O'Dog I can be

[orangedog]

Don't want to be an actor pretending on the stage
Don't want to be a writer with my thoughts out on the page
Don't want to be a painter cause everyone comes to look
Don't want to be anything where my life's an open book

A dream it's true
But I'd see it through
If I could be
Wasting my time with you

Don't want to be a farmer working in the sun
Don't want to be an outlaw always on the run
Don't want to be a climber reaching for the top
Don't want to be anything where I don't know when to stop

A dream its true
But I'd see it through
If I could be
Wasting my time with you

So if I'm inside your head
Don't believe what you might have read
You'll see what I might have said
To hear it

Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me

So if I'm inside your head
Don't believe what you might have read
You'll see what I might have said
To hear it

Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me

Come waste your time with me

Phish "Waste"




The continuation of a sunny weekend.

D and I spent the morning at the house. Played some games. Planted the start of a simple bonsai. I taught her about rocks, soil, wiring, etc. The tree will look cool in about 50 years so be sure to mark it on your calendars. D likes the house and thinks it's cute.

At noon we went over to W's house . W was experiencing a little culture shock going from almost a month without the kids to the youngest demanding help with video game setups, computer not working, not able to find anything in kitchen, etc. She'd just bought RockBand and was trying to figure things out. i got there and got the thing going so kids (and adults) enjoyed some pointless entertainment.

Later in the afternoon we went to another festival. A bit on the weird side but entertaining. I felt a bit cheap because W paid for admission and food at the event. I've got two counseling appts and an expensive rx to fill so my budget is down to the wire until the 15th. We joked about how I'm buying the next din and a movie for all four of us next time out. But I still felt a little cheap and not very manly.

We came home, kids played for a little while in the sprinklers, and I cooked up some din. Just like old times. Food was about ready to hit the plates when BFF and Fling arrived. They'd spent the weekend fishing and this was the first W had heard from them. They dropped some stuff in the freezer, made some loud conversation for a few minutes then rolled on. W was not crazy about it. After they left she told me how she'd laid down the law with BFF and Fling and rules about how much time they spend at the house. She even referred to Fling as "Jack--s" .

Kids went upstairs so we refilled our cups and settled in for a little conversation. W was really upset how her sister, just two weeks after a big breakup was already involved with someone new and brought her and the kids on a weekend trip with him. She promised she would never do something like that with me. (thanks) Seriously, she said she was in no hurry to find someone new. She also remembered how I said I wasn't interested in dating anyone either. i think my response was something like, "yeah I'm in no hurry. I'm enjoying my time"

W said we should give each other a big pat on the back for spending time with children and letting them know we love them. And getting along. Indeed!. More pointless convo. It was starting to get towards bath/bedtime so I said I needed to get going. I said bye to kids (gave them the "I'm watching you" sign language and joked a little). Then gave W a big hug and told her I was happy to waste so much time with her. She kind of laughed. You know what I mean.

Overall - I wasn't the most live today - my sleep is off ( and I mentioned that to her). She seemed maybe a little lonely, a little frustrated with others. But we spent the day as a family.

When I got back home I felt really sad.