Feeling Like A Victim Tonight....

[eternaloptimist]

Why does HE get to decide??

If I could only embrace that... I wouldn't feel like a victim. I can't seem to move into that place. I've run all the numbers, looked at all of the short- and long-term consequences of a divorce, and it doesn't add up for me. Bottom line, the only two positives from a divorce will be that HE might be happier (no guarantees) and our son might get into a better school district if I move away. Otherwise, it will all be worse.

I'm scared...I don't want to be a Single Mom for my 40th Birthday. I don't want to lose everything I have worked the past 20 years building all b/c H is depressed and can't seem to find any happiness with me.

I know that I DO HAVE A CHOICE. But the choice I want may not be the same that he wants. That is why I'm such a wreck!