Aside from the rainy and slushy weather, I had a pretty good weekend out of town by myself. I went out to eat at a steak house Sat. night. I just ate at the bar since I'm "single" now. This guy started talking to me. He was very polite and friendly and I eventually told him I was separated, but that didn't seem to bother him. He invited me to go fly-fishing the next day. But I declined, I'm not going to date anyone else. What's the point if I'm DBING and trying to save my marriage? It was flattering none the less, he told me I look 10 years younger than I am.

When I got home, I noticed that H had been here and used my computer. (His login name was on FB) He won't have internet service at his rental for another week. I had deleted my browsing history just in case he came over. But I forgot to clear the history in my mini-browser. I sure hope he didn't check it because I had his name, his ex's name, and an article about getting your separated husband back on it. How annoyingly embarrassing and pathetic of me if he did see it! frown Should I ask him if he used my computer while I was gone?

Also, should I ask for his house key back? A part of me doesn't want to because I want him to feel that I'm "leaving a door open" for him to come back. But then if he's going to come over when I'm not here and unintentionally run across my private stuff, well, that leaves me pretty vulnerable.

No contact from him since yesterday when he came over to pick up some stuff. It bothers me that he's not making more of an effort to keep me in my stepson's life. When should I discuss this concern with him?

On Tuesday H is going to LA for a week to visit his Dad. Maybe I will talk to him about SS when he gets back. I'm not going to say "keep in touch" anymore either. Afterall, I'm supposed to be going dark.

Me 40
WAH 43
T 4 years
M 9 1/2 months
sep. 3 weeks
1 stepson
1 dog
1 cat