Boy, I am so glad that there are so many people who can empathize (though I am certainly NOT glad that that there are so many of us feeling this way!).
I KNOW my H feels remorse at times, I have seen him very upset, but then he goes on with his merry own life (or so it seems). I do see him running, runnning, running to not have to face his feelings/realities. He spends money like we have it and is out A LOT. He seems to have a very active social life when he has never had one before (though who really knows - he could be sitting somewhere alone). He watches movies until all hours at night - can't sleep well (wonder why?).
I SOOOOOOO wish I could get in his face and tell him how unfair it is that he can have his crisis and dump all over us and treat me so very badly when I have been his best friend for getting close to 20 years now! I want to tell him he is acting like a spoiled, petulant, selfish TEENAGER! I pray that God finds him again and he "snaps out of it" but who knows.
I miss the days when I thought a MLC was just about buying a sports car . . .
My H is also having a LOT of trouble sleeping... I am giving him exactly what he wants - the space and freedom while we work this through or decide whether it's over. And he never seems all that happy. He goes out all the time too, but mostly with the same guy (who went through a breakup with a longtime gf, has a DD a little older than ours). I'm sure he's really conflicted about things, since whether or not our family stays together is all up to him. And he's basing it all on "feelings".
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
