I have moments like that every day... just knowing we were once soooo close to each other, but he couldn't tell me what was going on in his head, that he would just stop being affectionate and loving in the middle of a pregnancy - and then tell me he didn't feel the same way about me before the pregnancy, and before we bought our house...

I see some hope in our relationship, where we're actually talking to each other more than we had been (especially with me not contacting him), where we still talk about our future plans and so on... And I think he's encouraged by the fact that I'm so enthusiastic about GAL.

Still no affection, but I have this newfound respect for myself too... I only want it from him if he wants to give it - I'm not going to beg him for anything anymore.

My little brother died almost a year ago, and that was the most heartbreaking thing I've ever had to go through. This I can live with.

Me - 30, H - 32
T - 10, M - 6, D - 1
DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2
on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10)
Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011