H just moved out, 13 months post-bomb

[AliSuddenly]

Hey Dawn...

For now.. WELL DONE on moving things to the basement!! You are very strong to have a clear out like that.

As for this "I keep thinking about how I feel that he's permanently contaminated now--that circle can never be re-closed, even if we do reconcile. It's not so much a matter of the possibility of him comparing the two of us".. I was worried too, becuase bf was having sex with Helen for 7 months and I heard that she was very "dirty" in bed, so taht was NOT nice. But you know what? It doesnt matter in the end.. I thought I coulndt sleep with him for a while, that I wanted him to get tested, taht I saw him as contaminated.. but it all faded away once the love was back in his eyes and we were suddenly in bed, in that situation. I think the brain switched off and the body took over!

As for friends.. I had few of my own friends when we were together before, so I posted here often about how lonley I was. It took about a year I would say before I had built friendships back up with people.. and yes, I had to be persistent and do all the running and make a fuss of people and make TIME for them, or just spend time and play with their kids, take flowers, listen to their problems etc.. so.. just keep plugging away, dont give up?

xxx