I wish that I could extend my job into something real year round! When school is in session I cant work more than 20 hours a week. But you know what, I made it last year, so Ill make it again this year! But, this is all getting really stressful.
If H and I do work things out, I dont need to work full time. But I want to be self-sufficient so that if he pulls the rug out from under me again, I wont be in such a bad place as I was last year. He just told me the other day that he doesnt want strangers living in the house, which wasnt an issue when the house was going to be soley mine, but now if he is going to still be in the picture, I guess he can have a say.
I would like for us to start planning a trip to see each other. I just think that being face to face for at least a little while would be good for us.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
