The old saying goes, "Where there is smoke, there is fire." My personal experience of this marriage crisis hell, and the many, many stories you read on this site suggests that there is profound truth in that saying.
Every courtship begins with profusive contact. And don't even get me started on the whole notion of sending erotic stories where you and your new "friend" are the main characters.
I agree completely in this sitch, but I will say that I am holding out hope that there is not a PA that she is hiding from me.
She made some moves that may change things forever between us, and I may never get the truth about what has already transpired.
One thing I will say, and this is not from a naive viewpoint, I am not burying my head in the sand, sticking up for her or being chauvinistic. I think my wife is a beautiful woman, and up until this recent turn of events have always said she had the soul of a saint.
My wife is extremely self conscious about her body and physical appearance, and over the past year has actually fallen deeper into a rut of not doing anything about it. It weighs on her...I listen and I watch her and I know how unhappy she is with herself right now.
In my head, I would think if there was or is something physical going on..or planned in the future with someone who is not near by, I would see some sort of change in her appearance, attitude about herself...weight change..something that would tell me she is trying to be better, or look better for someone else....prepping..primping...something...and I don't.
Ahhh..the beauty of the computer and internet.
Thanks Bill....the anger comes and goes. I told someone today half of me wants to hold her, hug and kiss her and tell her how much I love her...the other half could care less whether or not she ever comes walking back through the door after the vacation.
Looks like I have about 24 hrs. She sent me a text this morning to say they were getting on the road.
I...foolishly, I think..called her to say hi..be safe, and had to ask her...
"just want to make sure you are coming home, staying home and we will be able to sit down soon and get all of our cards on the table...when you left we were still pretty close and I want to maintain that as long as we can through this new twist".
She said yes..of course and has texted me a couple of times during the day to keep me posted on their progress.
Our schedules will prevent us from hooking up soon after they get back, and I think I actually want to watch her and feel things out a bit before I go diving into this. I guess my hope is she will bring it up, get it out and be truthful...be the woman I know. Not a lot of hope for that, but hey, who knows.
Who knows what she has been thinking since this came out...who knows what text boy is thinking now that hubby knows.
