confused.....want to do something.....

[hopeful_cb]

I'm so glad you made it there ok. I think it's such a brave thing to do and you handled it well!

Don't get overwhelmed with the unpacking, I know it would be nice to have it done, but focus on the essentials first. What do you need for everyday use? Get that part settled and then think about the next step. If it seems like too much unpacking, break it down into manageable pieces.

I'm sure you are physically and emotionally tired after the move. Give yourself a break for the backslide. You have a lot changing and anyone would feel exhausted. I find when I'm exhausted is when I make make the mistakes with H. The best medicine for me is to rest, get some sleep. I know you have a lot to sort out now, but make sure you take care of yourself too!

It sounds like you were able to have a real conversation with your H regardless of the backslide with the question. Look at the good side of this too. He called you back, he is coming to visit soon(it sounds like?), he listened to your suggestions about work, he opened up to you that he is having therapy. That is a lot I think.

I know being dark is hard, I really struggled and still do, eventho I am having bits of contact with H now. What I did was every time I wanted to talk to H, call him, text him, etc, I called someone else either to vent my frustrations, or to just talk about something/anything else! I made comments to my friend asking please cut my hands off so I couldn't text! (joking) or about throwing my phone into the river outside my house one night I was really struggling. I guess I find some kind of humor helps me. Besides that what helps me is keeping busy busy busy when I feel like that. I always have something recorded on my tv, even if I don't end up watching it, just in case I need to keep my mind busy and have nothing else to focus on. It will get easier.

Get some sleep you will feel better and be able to think more clearly. Big changes always make me feel emotional, but look for the positives. Maybe make a list of new things in the area you can't wait to check out once your sorted with the move. I am a big fan of lists, they help me think in a more linear way rather than feel like my thoughts are a mess!

Keep your chin up and think one step at a time.