Take the "w" key off of your computer keypad for starters. And I'm NOT kidding
I think hobbies are great. And you should be writing a lot. In your own journal. About you and what you are interested in and read things in that vein too.
You do really need counseling. In the mean time, you can start writing and exploring who you are and what makes you tick. Part of this is new, growing, building...like a discovery, an adventure.
