sorry! and this is why I am trying to overcome my 'red buttons'... so far as i can see my own situation is beyond any real advice or help. ive tried for it and not gotten anything but basically being told, 'thats harsh' and that i have PTSD. neither of wich actually helps, but praying, and possibly helping others if i can even in a tiny little way, i think thats the only thing i have... and it IS helping me. im not a helpless victim, but neither will i let my ex H convey HIMSELF as a victim - which he tries very hard to do, to take the focus off the fact hes a big fat nasty lying predator.
but yea its ok, i know theres no real healing for me excep time in my case, time preferably completely and utterly free from ex and 'the flying monkeys' (his family). my fear is the only thing stopping that happening nothign else, the 'stuff' has already be done to me, the 'suffering' is over, iknow that, its just the FEAR.
and i do fear. certainly that he'll try to get to my daughter - he wouldnt bother with his sons, but his daughter o yes. the other day even she told me someone called 'lost' from london tried to add her as a 'friend'. she didnt add them. its only on HER he'll try to do his good works. on the boys, he knows it wont ever work. my life is pretty much this: me fighting hard and working and fighting hard an reminding my kids of whats right and wrong - and being determined that HE doesnt try to roll the dice HIS way. theres no room in my mind, for HIS way. but ultimately i think, they arent stupid. i think they will see thru any pathetic excuses. i do trust them. i just wish the day never had to happen, at all. but life being life, im sure its going to !
When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.
