And that is what I hate about this the most. The fact that one day, like my father does now, DH will look back with regret on all that has happened during this time. While my hope is that my marriage will be restored, more than anything I do not want my DH to live with regrets. I have a quote on my myspace that says "never regret things that you did in the past, remember it was what you wanted at the time." While it struck me as a platitude at the time, I know chose to live my life in such a way that I do not have to worry about regret.
That may be the single biggest influence on why I allow him the time I do with the kids and at the house. I don't want to ever be the reason that he does not have a relationship with his kids. He is so good with them--albeit he was better before all of this happened, but he is still much better than many other men I have seen. Tonight, I wanted so much to give him a hug and tell him thank you for being a good dad for his kids. I probably will do it sometime in the next week. He needs to know that I do appreciate him and all he does.
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
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Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
