im feeling very down.

i cant help but think about the ow and that he is most likely with her now.

sometimes it hits me more than others and when it does, it totally overwelms me.

i wish i could just feel "done" with him and move on.

but i cant fake the feeling and it doesnt help when he ropes me back in, just enough to give me hope again.

me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09