Sounds like you're doing all the right things, and embracing the right attitude. It sure doesn't take the hurt away, but makes it tolerable, and it will slowly get better as time goes by. The softball thing sounds perfect. It's important for us to continually remind ourselves that we can be happy and have a good life without our W. Life goes on. They were not some magic force that made our lives perfect. We regret our past behavior, that hurts. We miss them, that hurts. We're lonely, that hurts. Right now we see them as the key to taking away all that pain, but slowly we take control back and find out we can heal that pain ourselves.
Your W is on her journey, and whereas sometimes it might feel like you're just waiting for her, you are on your own journey now too. Just think how different you feel now compared to a month ago! One month from now will look and feel different from now.
Hi futureunknown.
I'm doing my best to do the right things, and also to embrace the right attitude. Nope, the hurt is still there...and I hope it continues to get better with time. I'm really enjoying the softball and comaraderie! I'm gonna have a good and happy life...I intend to. I hope it's with the mother of my children...if not, then I'll have to go on and continue to do my best. She did complement me, and I was fortunate to have her...to deny that would be dishonest. I do regret my past behavior, and it does hurt. Yep, I do miss her a bunch, and it does hurt. Yeah, I'm lonely, and it hurts. I want to heal, and I want the pain to go away. I want her to heal...regardless...and I want her pain to go away...regardless. I want to be happy, strong, secure, powerful, confident, and assertive...instead of feeling the way I have since about last December.
Thanks for the different perspective, because I do feel like I'm just waiting for her. I am much better than I was a month ago...and hopefully a month from now I'll be much better than I am now. I know she's on her journey too.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
