I'm so bummed out. I was about ready to leave for my little weekend trip. H calls but I don't pick up. He arrives a few minutes later to pick some stuff. I didn't want to be here because I wanted him to wonder where I was. He was in a hurry to pick up some stuff. I acted busy and upbeat. He did ask me where I was going when he saw the suitcase. I told him I was heading out of town. A couple minutes later after he came in from the garage he asked where exactly I was going. I told him where I was going and that I was meeting my best friend there. Probably too much info.
I asked him how stepson(autistic) was. He said SS didn't want to come over here. I asked him why he thinks SS hasn't wanted to come over since H moved into rental a couple days ago. H said maybe it's because he never felt at home here. I thought that was a little mean of him to say. I didn't validate what he said and just mentioned that SS sure had fun with me last Friday night when he was here and didn't want to leave the next morning.
H was only here about 5 minutes. Before he left he said drive safely. I told him thanks and keep in touch. He smiled and said keep those cards and letters rollling in.
All in all, I don't think it was that friendly of an interaction. I guess it could have been worse. I just want him to miss me and to fall in love with me again. I guess I just have to expect a miracle and remain positive. This is going to be one long, hard journey.
Me 40 WAH 43 T 4 years M 9 1/2 months sep. 3 weeks stepson 9 1 dog 1 cat
