I have to admit, for a while I was hating the Internet, as I saw it as the tool that took my W away from me. Of course this board wouldn't exist without the Internet either, and this board is awesome, so I have to realize it is just what it is, and people can use it for good things or bad.
Several of the women here on the board are saying the same thing, that I'm doing the right thing by "playing it cool", but sometimes I wonder. Sometimes I try to look at it from her side. She knows what she did, she knows she's with OM. She knows she betrayed me, abandoned our M, and took my kids from me half the time. Yet she sees with me with a great attitude, being fun and flirty. Does she wonder "What's up with this guy? Doesn't he have any self respect? Why doesn't he hate me? He should hate me. Anyone with self respect would hate me." What am I saying about myself that I am continuing to extend myself to her, and offer her my company, my humor, my conversation, my desire?
