Thanks snodderly. Have heard from my soliciter about his finances and it looks as if Ill be ok with a fair division of assets. There is an unreal feeling about this as if its a game we are playing to see who blinks first- I long to contact him just to know he is ok but there again I would feel bad if he is happy (without me) and bad if he is unhappy!I do get lonely but know this is down to myself.Can they really erase so many years? I could understand it if we had had a stormy marriage but it was more like best friends really.He never shared his feelings.I knew he must be having affairs but carried on.Im ok during the day but wake up upset at night-guess thats normal.Thank you for your kind messages x
