he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

so glad i resisted the urge to text h last night.

i relate these urges to the urges of an emotional eater.

if i would have texted last night, for no reason, i would have felt guilty about it this morning, kinda like if u eat at night, the box of cookies when you werent even hungry and then take it out on yourself the next day. lol.

i wish i could find the balance of fighting for my marriage and moving on at the same time.

sometimes i think i am doing it, sometimes i think the not letting go isnt helping me to move on.