Divorce looming #14

[K4D]

Yes. It was stupid of me. I did take a stand and then melted again. It probably wasn't something even worth arguing about. I think I was just fed up with MIL.

Tonite I took the kids out for pizza and to a park later. D7 seems to be struggling with her emotions lately. I'm not sure why. I wonder if this D is starting to affect her. I know it can't be easy on either girl. Heck, its not easy on me so it has to be extremely hard on them.

Ya, I did have a nervous breakdown going to Florida and back. I kind of feel like the meds are starting to kick in a little bit. I don't feel so anxious tonight. I need to get my apartment cleaned up a bit. I kind of let it go some this week. W saw it today and I'm sure was not impressed. Probably another set back for me.

Honestly I think the meds are good for me. There are times when I will start excercising and then I start thinking about W and I just stop right there.

I need more patience. Thats for sure. Part of me wants to believe that my W still cares about me while the other part of me tells me she doesn't by looking at actions.

Part of me thinks this is hopeless and I will never get her back even years down the road. To be interesting I have to do something that interests me.

Ever since I got on these meds I get tired faster these days. I basically slept as soon as I got home from work last night through out most of the rest of the night. Is that normal?

What am I posting for right now? I really have nothing of value to say at the moment.

Kevin