I am finding that the day after I speak to my H is so hard. I wake up thinking everything is ok & then reality sets in & I really want to talk to him. I am so happy I will be busy today! Thanks mnt_dreams, I'm off to get my truck & excited!
I am so excited!!!! I got my truck & drove it home! It was fine! Reversing is tricky & I can't go over 55 mph I think. Now the movers tomorrow morning & I will be off on Friday! I am definately going to do this! My parents left this afternoon & I'm on my own for today.... I can't wait until I am in my own place! Yeah! That's all for now. I have one last box to pack & I have been procrastinating it for an entire day now! I will get to that tonight before going to bed.
Go back and read your first few posts and then tell me..no us... if that person would have ever done what you are doing and about to do????
You are doing great. I'm not going to kid you. I have rough days where I am a mess... you have read my thread. But everyday gets better and every day opens up a new insight to yourself.
When I was your age I thought I had the whole world in front of me.... You have it made. The sweet thing about it is that you will have a choice one day. Whether you like your independent life or want to be back in a relationship. Maybe your husband who sits around thinking you need him may find himself wondering what he has to do to make you give him more attention.
Orchid, I don't know what you have as far as close friends. I get the impression that people who end up on these boards are the ones who devoted their whole life and existence to their spouse and families. in my case that means not having a lot of friends to start off with... but more and more I return to the person I once was... outgoing and friendly to strangers...
You are a great person, the neatest thing about being a great person is that it will be your choice if you decide to be with someone in the future.....
don't worry about the future okay.... The only future you need to worry about is the overpasses on your trip... anything less that 14 feet...avoid
Seriously though... one day you and I and PH and mmt are going to be shooting emails backand forth and we are all going to be happy!
Yep - we are going to be happy, and we're getting stronger every day!!
I am so envious of you driving that big truck by yourself... YOU ROCK!! Seriously, you have a lot of courage and strength. You're going to look back on this move and give yourself serious props!!
We will be thinking about you! Be sure to post after you arrive safely!
I agree! You can totally do this, you will look back and see how well you have done and that will make you feel good. You are strong and growing in strength everyday.
I think we are all on similar journeys in our own ways, getting stronger each day and working towards being happy. I am sure it will happen for us.
Good luck with the moving & driving, will be waiting to hear from you when you get there!
Me-27 H-28 M-2.5 yrs T-8.5 yrs No kids B 1/09 S 2/09
Hey all! I drove about 13 hrs today! It is really hard to get any sort of consistent speed. But did ok. I feel as if I am 120 yes old! My back hurts, my knees hurt, and my hand is cramping from gripping the steering wheel, I think! See what I mean? Ha! Ha! Only a couple of hours tomorrow & I will be at my new apartment. H called this morning....I missed his call. He left a message wishing me a safe journey! Whatever! He was in such a good mood! Said he hoped I enjoyed my adventure! ADVENTURE?????? I don't know if I am mad at him or just cranky from the long drive. It seems insensitive to call this am adventure when he has just up & dumped this on my lap! Ok....I know too much focus on H!
I know I cannot have any expectations of him & it probably was a nice thing that he called me this morning.
All I can think right now is "Big Deal"!
Sorry. I feel so bummed for some reason. I was so excited yesterday! I did not sleep last night & I must be just tired! Ok well, I just wanted to vent...hope everyone is doing well & thank youvso much for all the well wishes. That really made my day. Will blog before going to bed. Hopefully some dinner & tv will help.
GREAT JOB today - 13 hours in that big truck! You should be very proud of yourself! Let us know when you get to your new place. You are doing awesome, and I'm very impressed!
You are right mnt_dreams! I got a goodnight's sleep & feel way better. Really it doesn't mean anything that H called or what he was thinking, Really this is my move for my career & everything else is candy. I think I tend to want more from him when I am tired. I need to figure out what I used to do before H! Really I did not have a mechanism in place. I think I used to just journal evsry day & let it build until I just took a day off. Where I would just spend the day in bed & read a romance, watch TV. & just wild the day away. I think when I was in Charlitte NC, I wenk for day long hikes! Exhausting & Energizing! Hmm. I am back in hot weather.....wonder if they have hiking nearby!
Ok thanks mnt_dreams, it helped to read ur response this morning! I am up earlier than I need to be, as usual & so I am going to try to relax before I head off again.
