I see you visited my thread. Did you read it? Just wondering because it's all about forgiveness. Hurting is a good sign that we haven't yet been able to forgive. The hurting should come in smaller doses as we move along the forgiveness path. I'm sure I'm not telling you anything you don't already know. Remember the big DB picture? When the WAS is nice to us, as in the "exchange," we should count it as a blessing and be nice in return. Even when they are not nice to us, we should still be nice to them. It's a sign that they are reaching out. If it's hard to be nice to her, that's a good indication that you haven't forgiven her, or yourself. God is always in control and if we believe wholeheartedly, he will always answer our prayers.
Who knows....maybe she's rethinking her stance? Count it as a blessing and stop cursing yourself. You are a blessing to her, and deep down inside, she knows it!