Today has been hard. H hasn't called or emailed since he moved his stuff out a couple days ago. I cried several times. I just feel so sad and hurt and alone. I'm even crying as I write this. My doctor prescribed me an AD 3 weeks ago when H left. I was hoping it would have kicked in by now. Maybe it has and I would be much worse if I wasn't taken it.
I'm going to force myself to take my dog for a long walk even though it's cold, breezy, and cloudy. I'm going to make myself go out later to the wine bar and have one drink and be social. I need to make more friends in my new town. I need to be around people. I can't stand being alone.
I wonder if my H misses me.
I'm not even going to call about stepson anymore. He's not bringing him over here, so I think I need to go completely dark. Let him at least miss the stepmothering I gave his son.
Me 40 WAH 43 T 4 years M 9 1/2 months Separated 3 weeks stepson 9 1 dog 1 cat
