Well so far a nice quiet work day, read as, I got nothing done.
Starting to get mixed feelings about date tonight. One moment I'm excited, next moment I'm scared, next moment I'm questioning if this is right. arrrrraaaghggh!
At the same time, knowing that W will be leaving town, I really want to go 'home', meaning I really want to move back there. I loved it there.
Oh well, I'm going to take myself out to the bar, by myself a couple of birthday beers and approach tonight with no expectation and try and console the frightened little child in me and put him in the back seat. Hell, I'm 34 years old. 11 years ago and 2 kids, I never thought I'd be going on a first date again, ever. Not even if W passed before me.
uggh, why in the world do I still have feelings for someone who has been so horrible, ruthless and selfish (just to name a few).
Alright time to straighten my head out and be the best I can be tonight, myself.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
