Well first off, let me say that I'm sorry that you find yourself here with the rest of us. However, you'll never find a more caring group of people who will put in the time and effort to help you save your M.
I'm going to read your longer post a little later, but I just wanted you to know you're not alone. We've all been through this. Stay strong and have faith.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.