Stress, WAW and life in general III

[AJM]

Sorry for the long delays in updating guys. I've been trying to keep my head together. When she left it was quite the mindf***.

I'm close to saying c-ya. Then I talked to the MC and she tells me I let my W into my head too much. I think she's right.

I think I'm being used. I think my W is using me to keep from feeling other feelings. What I mean is that she dredges up things to make her angry (shaking mad) so that she can avoid the other feelings of guilt and worthlessness.

Some of the things she's since told me make me think she's clinically depressed. She has a doctor's appt next week, but we'll see if she goes through with it. She was having real trouble getting out of bed, sleeping, eating, etc. Not sure where she is now. She moved out, so I don't really know what's going on. Scary, but I realize I have to focus more on me.

The good news is that the kids get her more undivided attention when with her. I'm happy for that although I can see the wear and tear it is putting on them. They're doing their best though.

I've got four days to be with me, myself, and I. I'm very much looking forward to that (although I do miss the kids.)

AJ