I'm still ashamed of what I did and at night it causes sleep problems. All I can think about is what all of my close family and friends would think if they knew what I did. It's hard to be ashamed of myself, I can't imagine having my friends and family ashamed of me. That would kill me. I worry about my soul, too.
WDID-
Sweetie, it is time to forgive yourself. God has already forgiven you for everything. Let the Blood of the Lamb wash you clean.
Some scriptures for you--
Romans 3:23,24 "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus"
Hebrews 4:15 "For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin."
and
2 Corinthians 5:21 "God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God."
You have repented and made amends. Let go and walk in His forgiveness.
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
He doesn't even REMEMBER it. It's as if God says, "WHAT sin??"
You are cleansed in the blood, WDID. My favorite is I think it's 1 James 1:9), "If we confess our sins, then He is faithful and just, and will forgive our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
StrongMarvelousWoman and Puppy- Thank you both, your responses brought tears to my eyes. I wish I could stop the nightmares. By the way, Strong, I went to your sitch and it looks like you have it all under control. Just keep doing what you are doing.
Stuck- I left a message on your sitch.
GH31- This friendship doesn't bother my husband. If it did, I would stop. It also doesn't make me want to have an affair, it does the opposite. I'm only distancing myself because of the person that she is....needy, immoral, makes me feel bad about myself, wants different things in life, bad mother, etc. It's someone that I don't want to be around because she sucks the life out of me. So, I pick and choose when to see her.
StrongMarvelousWoman and Puppy- Thank you both, your responses brought tears to my eyes. I wish I could stop the nightmares. By the way, Strong, I went to your sitch and it looks like you have it all under control. Just keep doing what you are doing.
WDID--
Thanks for your input and support. I am holding strong.
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
Thanks, Kat. It's been a hard few weeks. I haven't wanted to come on the computer as much. With my son home from the summer now, it makes it harder as well.
Only update is that H told me he is going to get a book on intimacy to educate himself on some things and get some questions answered. All I can say is...ABOUT TIME!!!!! This is going to sound wierd, but he has been doing this clingy, sugary, too tender thing ALL THE TIME and it is turning me wayyyy offff! I need a man. Those of you men wanting to get your wives back...please don't act all mushy gushy....ickkkkkk! My H is almost acting like I am his child in the way he is being with me.....I want a husband, not a parent!!! Maybe it was the funeral, and he is trying to be kind. I need him to have some of his OWN interests, perhaps meet with some other guys some times without me, and then after doing those things for a while....make some sort of manly move....not all romancey cheesey tender stuff.....Something more primal, or at least talking about it even if it doesn't happen......his wants/ his desires, etc.....He even does this baby voice that is driving me insane.......
Ok, any nice way to talk to H about this without taking every ounce of confidence away from him?
Ok, any nice way to talk to H about this without taking every ounce of confidence away from him?
Well, tell him your fantasies? Obviously they don't include a guy using a baby voice? But don't mention that, just tell him what would really turn you on? It obviously sounds like he's trying to figure that out. Karen
