Trying to detach from the madness!

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SO2, it is very common to have thoughts about your own mortality and what will become of your kids...especially when you are feeling somewhat down...as you have been. But, try to look at it another way....instead of worrying about what if. Think about what is!!! You never know when your time is going to come. Why waste a moment of that precious time putting up with your H's $hit? Getting involved in the drama? Worrying about his life and how he is going to act and how he is going to feel and how he is going to treat you? I'm not intending this to be a 2 X 4. But, these are things I tell MYSELF...daily. Why waste any time on bull$hit.

Love yourself, love your kids, love your life..in that order. Fake it till you make it, if you have to. There are gonna be hard day...no doubt. But, you will come out of them and it will get easier and easier.

Last night MIL's best friend asked me how I was doing? I said, "I was doing great". I wasn't. But, after saying that...I thought...yes, I am, actually.

Happy Birthday to your girl. Amazing how fast they grow up. Don't let a minute pass you by or waste away.

Love you.