Over the Shock and GALing 4

[Thinker]

"Thinking" a bit more about this...

I "Think" that this fear has something to do with the fact that I am supporting my W in her endeavor not as an act of true giving, but as giving with expectations...

I am supporting her with the expectation that if it is successful, then I will have (finally) less than 100% of the financial responsibility for the family.

I am supporting her with the expectation that if she is successful, she will be happy and more able to be happy in a M.

I am supporting her with the expectation that she will appreciate the support, that it will reduce some of the resentment she has at giving up her career to follow mine, and that it will help us to come back together.

I am supporting her due to my love for start-up ventures and my desire to be involved myself.

I am supporting her due to my moral obligation to support her as my W.

I think I am fearful here because it feels like more unappreciated self-sacrifice.

Maybe if I had my own exciting projects I was working on, I wouldn't fear this at all???

hmmmmm....

I'm Thinking....I'm Thinking....