She said the texting was mostly the past couple of months when we talked the other day, and like I said, insisted it was nothing emotional.
If I had to say...that might make sense. She has still been pretty close and cool, but maybe something was different lately. I would say through the winter and early spring, things were very good. That's why I had not been around here much.
I reread that this morning, and didn't want anyone to think I was completely naive.
I was just repeating what she said and thinking about what she gave me for a time frame and her actions and moods over the past several months.
When we talked the other night I told her that I noticed a more relaxed wife the past couple of months. She said it was because we were drinking and going out all the time...self medicating.
I have been out with a friend once since they left and did some drinking...other than that..nothing, and I feel pretty damn good. I know I pushed for it a lot when we were together this past year to keep the momentum going and have some fun, and I know her vacation and the people she is with has allowed her to stay focused on the partying.
My goal, along with the others is to leave that behind, see where she goes with it and focus on myself, the home, job and finances.
Like I said in the post last night, I think I am going to dig in for the fight. Not necessarily to save the marriage, but because for a year now I have laid back and told her when the time comes I will pack and leave.
She changed the rules, broke a trust and a promise. I have nothing but a good husband and a gentleman for 14 months now and she chose to stay...chose not to push for a separation.
It's my home just as much as it is hers, and if she needs the space or to be away from me, it's her option to find it.
